Projects Ongoing.
It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. I have no excuse other then I’ve been lazy. It seems for about the past year the only thing I’ve really posted were updates telling you that I’m going to start posting again. As much as I would like to say this time is going to be different, I can’t make any promises.
This blog hasn’t been forgotten. I think about it on almost a daily basis, actually. My thoughts run along the line of, “I should really blog more.” Then I get lost in a smoky sea of beer and cigarettes and wind up crying on my dogs shoulder over something stupid, like the dead duck I saw in the middle of the road. (More on the one later.)
I don’t know what changed, other then every single thing in my life. From moving back to Maryland to getting separated from the Navy to major changes in daily operations, it’s been a really long year. As I sit on the cusp of another huge life change I wonder why I’ve stopped chronicling my thoughts, hopes, fears and shit that I think is just funny. One of my therapists said that journaling is the best way to get things off your chest and I supposed that when I decided that I didn’t need my meds anymore I didn’t need to do anything to keep myself sane. For the past few months I’ve been bottling everything and play the Fine Game. Maybe now that I see myself in a place where I’m thinking about going back on meds, all I really need to do is to start blogging again.
Maybe these are just ramblings of a crazy person. I don’t know.
What I do know is that most of the blogs that I follow have taken a similar hiatus and, while it makes me feel better, is no excuse. Does this mean that I’m actually going to start writing on a regular basis? Probably not. I can say that I am going to make a more conscience effort.
April 2nd, 2009 at 6:40 pm
YAY! I love this post!
And, interestingly enough, my therapist has said the same thing about writing. And just yesterday she told me that when I think I’m going crazy, I’m really just feeling feelings! BLECK! Wait, no, i mean YAY! Whatev…
Anyway, this is me saying “Hi Kettle, nice to meet ya, my name is Pot!” Here’s to posting more….
April 3rd, 2009 at 12:05 am
Okay - this is a start. You are doing what you need to do right now. Just take it easy and trust some of the people around you. You do have friends.
April 3rd, 2009 at 4:20 am
nice
i find that i am oftentimes too swamped to blog. my blogging reflects that in the last few posts, as it was bottled so much it became vomit and purged. lol
April 13th, 2009 at 1:53 pm
I hear ya, sista.
September 24th, 2009 at 8:41 pm
actually, if you wouldnt mind??? seriously, i would love some mouthwash bottles. goldshlauger? whatever you feel like sending……oh. colorful toe socks would also help
i knew we were buddies for a reason
until jon learns to love himself, he cant love others. he was unhappy since i met him, and i guess i thought i could change that. i did everything in my power to make him happy…to no avail, apparently